Yknow how busy everyone gets when sch starts, not in a poly way kind of busy but it's like 528304619x worse, and with all that competitiveness, but your best friends actually make time for u despite having an interview and tons of deadlines to meet, letting you pour out your woes at 1 in the morning and etc. You know that they're definitely keepers.

I've been acting like I'm okay but I'm not. What if I stay like this forever, what if I never get over Chuck?

Oh yea Blair, you always say stuff that I can fully relate to.

People say I will get over it but how long?

I've lost the only thing that I actually look forward to meeting apart from my best friends.

It gets so quiet at night and sometimes my stupid tear ducts turn on for no reason.

I'd just wished it'd be that easy.

Sometimes I feel like dying. Ya just sometimes.

So it's been exactly one month since I last posted. I'll be posting when I'm free, not saying that I'm free now but since I'm taking a break from my report, let me rant.

Uni:

School has always been a dread since week zero. There's nothing to look forward to, every day's a drag and seriously they should come up with some sort of a handbook on how to survive in uni. It's all self learning, nobody cares about your attendance, lab sessions are like "here are your equipment, start recording your results", people you meet which you can safely stereotype them into 4 categories : The selfish nerds, nicer kids who come from poly, the over-enthu rah rah hall peeps oh and of course the cool ones, namely Siew Tin and me.

Mmm so far I have zilch idea about physics. And its the fifth week already. Just stab me.

So aside from that, my room in hall seems to be getting a little more comfy because I've been staying there pretty often (managed to survive one night alone) although I absolutely hated the sight of it on my first trip there.

Non-school related:

It's been ages since the bffflutd met up without missing anyone. However the most recent was us&other halfs having dinner at Bella's Pizza, and I swear I am never going back to Pizza Hut anymore unless I'm broke.

Attended Siew Tin's 21st at MBS last Saturday and got the chance to swim at the infinity pool. The view was fawesome and of course the party too.

Been hanging out with Kenny pretty often, don't know what I'd do without you. He never fails to wow me with magic. He has been so fabbbb, coming all the way to Pioneer in consecutive days just to send me back to hall before heading home/have dinner/crashing for the night because it's damn creepy staying alone/going to places that I wanna go/listen to me whine all day about how school sucks/etc. And that was enough magic to last me through the week. Many ♥♥♥ for you huney.

And so, that was my life for the past couple of weeks in a nutshell.

-S