I think I'm a pretty messed up person.
I have done so many things which I'm not proud of.
Things that would probably make people go "Really? You of all people did that? Oh my! How shameful!", things that the parents would kick up a huge fuss over, things that I regretted doing the moment I woke up the next morning realising how awful I felt and what a stupid mistake it was.
There's so much I'd like to say, to tell people about what I did or did not do or should have done and that beneath this sunshine happy girl exterior is just someone really horrid, or so I'd like to think that I am.

I'm so sick of having to pretend that I'm nice bubbly happy funny and entertaining.