♥♥♥

And she tastes like the real thing :D

Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 8:56 pm

The little things you do to me are taking me over.

saturday was goooood.
had cell and met shar in the evening for a swim at D'Manor.
heart to heart talks, incessant laughters, snapping of photos, steam bath and mcdonalds (i know i swore to myself not to touch fast food becuase it kills you fast and it's like fake food but i really wanted to eat.)
it was awesome moresome.

craving for carbonara.badly.

oh i'll be going for mentor training camp this wednesday.
going to be so shagged when i'm back.

remember the time you lent me you car and i dented the fender?
i thought you'd kill me...
but you didn't.
remember the time i spilled the coke on your new rug?
i thought you'd kill me...
but you didn't.
remember the time i forgot to tell you the dance was formal and you came in jeans?
i thought you'd hate me...
but you didn't.
remember the countless times you'd try to be serious and i'd giggle?
i thought you'd leave me...
but you didn't.
remember the times i'd flirt with other guys just to make you jealous - and you were?
i thought you'd drop me...
but you didn't.
there were so many things you did to put up with me, to keep me happy, to love me.
and there were so many things i wanted to say to you after you returned from vietnam.
but you didn't.

is that the saddest poem ):
iansmellytan gave me the link.bitter sweet right.mm mm.

I REALLLLLYYYYY WANT AN IPHONE I WANT AN IPHONE I REALLY WANT IT!
and and i'm veryvery excited to go shoppping with xiu later this week (:
we've collated a long list of things we want to buy so watch out because we're going to come on full speed.

i want an iphone if you didn't read the previous paragraph.hehheh.

Friday, March 28, 2008 @ 4:06 pm

you wear those shoes and i will wear that dress

this were photos from last week:
met shi en after eons, caught step up2 and had desserts at cafe cartel.

pfffttt does that mean i'll never get an iphone.

ahhh heck it.

Thursday, March 27, 2008 @ 7:42 pm

somewhere over the rainbow.

coulbn't resist the temptation of going out and so went for lunch at sakae with jesschooxuanny.

according to jess, i have a skin disorder called: Acne Rosacea.

Rosacea is a long-term disease that affects your skin and sometimes your eyes. It causes redness and pimples. Rosacea is most common in women and people with fair skin.
No one knows what causes rosacea. You may be more likely to have it if you blush a lot or if rosacea runs in your family. Rosacea is not dangerous. It can be treated with medications and sometimes surgery. It begins as erythema (flushing and redness) on the central face and across the cheeks, nose, or forehead but can also less commonly affect the neck and chest. As rosacea progresses, other symptoms can develop such as semi-permanent erythema, telangiectasia (dilation of superficial blood vessels on the face), red domed papules (small bumps) and pustules, red gritty eyes, burning and stinging sensations, and in some advanced cases, a red lobulated nose (rhinophyma).

There are four identified rosacea subtypes and patients may have more than one subtype present.
andddd, i fall under the first category.
[1] Erythematotelangiectatic rosacea: Permanent redness (erythema) with a tendency to flush and blush easily. It is also common to have small blood vessels visible near the surface of the skin (telangiectasias) and possibly burning or itching sensations.

The first signs of rosacea are said to be persisting redness due to exercise, changes in temperature, and cleansing.

Causes of Rosacea:
Triggers that cause episodes of flushing and blushing play a part in the development of rosacea. Exposure to temperature extremes can cause the face to become flushed as well as strenuous exercise, heat from sunlight, severe sunburn, stress, anxiety, cold wind, moving to a warm or hot environment from a cold one such as heated shops and offices during the winter. There are also some foods and drinks that can trigger flushing, these include alcohol, foods and beverages containing caffeine (especially, hot tea and coffee), foods high in histamines and spicy food.

Treatment:
Dermatological vascular laser (single wavelength) or Intense Pulsed Light (broad spectrum) machines offer one of the best treatments for rosacea, in particular the erythema (redness) of the skin.They use light to penetrate the epidermis to target the capillaries in the dermis layer of the skin.

OHNOOOOOOOOO.

apple apple apple.
iphone iphone iphone.
black black black.
sleek sleek sleek.
sexy sexy sexy.
gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous.
8gb 8gb 8gb.
USD 399.
geez geez geez.
mm mm mm.
i want (:

Wednesday, March 26, 2008 @ 4:36 pm

its make or break

i cannot believe that i'm spending the whole of this week and probably next week at home when there are a million nice things to do outside.

why? because i'm brokkkkeee and i need to start saving up moolah to go SHOPPING WITH XIU next thursday.

the many million things that i've wanted to say:

oh they're all quite randomly written by the way.

i miss my favouritest clique, the pink cotten candy club.(HAHAHA WHAT A CORNY NAME I KNOW)

it's so ironic how the people you're supposed to be close to are the people you see the least.

it's been ages since we've last met up, though i always get to meet yanjun and xiu.

all the plans we made when we were in secondary school, times where we laughed our asses off, the dumb cheating case, practicing for talent time, oh ya and remeber the time when i cried in class in sec 2, because the guys were disturbing me and i squeezed eye drop into clement's mouth?

yanjun and her merlion act, xiu borrowing my markers during geog lessons, running around up and down to different classes in order to skip art period and making the teachers cry.

haha those were the days.

but when i think about it, like they do in the movies, even if you don't see your best friends for twenty years down the road, when you meet up you're still best friends and the friendship is still alive.i think it's something we should all hold close to our hearts.

another thing i've long wanted to complain about.

maybe some things will never be enough.or maybe i'll never be satisfied, because humans are made that way, right? something is always missing, something is always wrong.i seem to have this ability to find a flaw in everything.maybe it seems that i have unrealistic expectations, because i believe that all it takes is some thought and effort.or maybe it's because i have unrealistic expectations, that i don't notice the little things that makes a difference, because i choose to look and hope for something bigger.

i just want to bite on an ice-cream cone, ride a bike to somewhere far and breezy, not think about anything and just breathe.

i miss them MUCHMUCHMUCH luh.

it hits me very hard how much your fitness can drop in a span of a couple of months.WHAT THE PIANG.need to start going to the gym, running and swimming at least once or twice a week.haha i'll try.

i love and want an iphone.

anyone nice enough to get me one?

i hate my phone.its bloody cocked up.though i still can make and answer calls, i can't message or view any text cause all i see is a blank screen.

sucks big time.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 @ 2:28 pm

split splat

OMG I'M SO HAPPY, CAN DIE.

the past couple of days had been absolutely awesome moresome.

impromptu dinner on saturday at aston's, followed by dessert at the cheesecake cafe, taking stupid videos, long walk up the hill to shar's house and cam whoring.

late lunchers at popeyes yesterday, going to the supermarket with jess to buy her what nots, slacking at yanjun's house and our ohsolofty plans to earn more cash.

i feel loveddd (:

and dinner with the class babes tomorrow at ecp.yay yay yay.

okay too lazy to blog already.

CIAO.will update soon.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 5:39 pm

results

i'm so bloody bored that i'm watching popeyes.
SHUCCSS results are out like tomorrow or is it the day after?
i've had recurring dreams about flunking them.
ughhh.

Monday, March 10, 2008 @ 12:10 pm

the past weeks

things that happened during the past few weeks or so that i've yet to blog about.so here goes (:

went to sakae with the classmates after biofund, which was hell.
headed to bugis street thereafter and shopped a bit.

made many plans to meet up during the holidays, of which our sentosa plan FINALLY materialised.

went to sentosa on monday with sarah, siew tin and rathi.

weather wasn't too good.ohmysunnytian, there wasn't even any sun.

saw wenhao and he still calls me smelly -.=

ooohhhh we caught the leap years.awesome moresome but a tad too draggy at certain scenes.

i want a guy to write me love notes and throw them down a building.haha not.

can't believed that my holidays are finally here but i've been sick.down with flu, sore throat and a terrible cough.SUCKZZ.

binged on tubs of ice cream, many packets of instant mee, multiple plates of sushi, pineapple tarts.basically, eating a hell lot, especially during shar's birthday celebration during the buffet at ellenborough market cafe at swissotel merchant court.

yanjun jess shar and me went to celebrate shar's eighteenth a couple of days back.xiu couldn't make it because she was really sick.poor girl.

my my, i can't believe we're that old.

a subtle transition from the world of being seventeen to the big eighteen.
i got to know shar in primary 5, we're in the same chinese class and we became classmates in sec 1.we argued over some really stupid stuff and stopped talking.seriously, i have no idea what we were arguing about.hahaha.i'm so glad things have turned out this way and we're still really really good friends till now.love you back babe (:

met winston after church yesterday at town.lunched, shopped and caught meet the spartans.it was short and there was a whole load of gay action.not worth your moolah.

i've read two books.the memory keeper's daughter and my sister's keeper.
awesome moresome.both books made me tear like a goondusamy.SHUCCS.

my sister's keeper:

There should be a statute of limitation of grief.A rule book that says it is all right to wake up crying, but only for a month.That after forty-two days you will no longer turn with your heart racing, certain that you have heard her call out your name.That there will be no fine imposed if you feel the need to clean out her desk; take down her artwork from the refrigerator; turn over a school portrait as you pass-if only because it cuts you fresh again to see it.That it is okay to measure the time she has been gone, the way we once measured birthdays.

For a long time, afterward, my father claimed to see Anna in the night sky.Sometimes it was the wink of her eye, sometimes the shape of her profile.He insisted that the stars were people who were so well loved they were traced in constellations, to live forever.My mother believed , for a long time, that Anna would come back to her.She began to look for signs-plants that bloomed too early, eggs with double yolks, salt spilled in the shape of letters.

And me, well, i began to hate myself.It was, of course, all my fault.If Anna had never filed that lawsuit,if she hadn't been at the courthouse signing papers with her attorney, she would never have been at that particular moment.She would be here, and i would be the one coming back to haunt her.

For a long time, i was sick.The transplant nearly failed, and then inexplicably, i began the long steep climb upward.It has been eight years since my last relapse, something not even Dr. Chance can understand.He thinks its a combination of the ATRA and the arsenic therapy-some contibuting delayed effect-but i knew better.It is that someone had to go, and Anna took my place.(i teared at this point)

My mother let me have that picture of Anna.But i didn't frame it; i put it into an envelope and sealed it and stuffed it far back into a corner drawer of a filing cabinet.It's there, just in case one of these days i start to lose her.There might be a morning when i wake uo and her face isn't the first thing i see.Or a lazy August afternoon when i can't quite recall anymore where the freckles were on her right shoulder.Maybe one of these days, I will not be able to listen to tje sound of snow falling and hear her footsteps.When i start to feel this way I go into the bathroom and i lift up my shirt and touch the white lines of my scar.I remember how, at first, i thought the stitches seemed to spell out her name.I thought about her kidney working inside me and her blood running through my veins.I take her with me, wherever i go.

gooodyyy.i want to read and read and read.i'm so glad for the holidays for one simple reason.that is i don't have to study for any stupid quizzes.

i spent a couple of hours last night painting fake nails, you know those plastic ones you stick on your fingers.the kind you can get at daiso.not very fantastic but i'm happy.see what boredom does to people.

i have loved and lived (:

i have laughed and cried.

i think these past few weeks, i've had a fair share of ups and downs and experienced things that make life total shit, and beautiful.

all in a span of 14 days.wowza.

I NEED A JOBBBBBBBB.rawrr.