paddled from changi to pasir ris then to pulau ubin yesterday.
i'm so disappointed with myself.
i have my highs and lows, just like everybody else.
yesterday was just bad.
i nearly cried while paddling.
i feel that i'm so weak, so lousy and all.
i was one of the last few at the back.
coach had to make it worse by scolding me non stop from pasir ris all the way to pulau ubin.
19km of paddling under the sultry heat really pushed me to my limits.
i felt so bloody tired, my thigh muscle, back and arm hurts.
and yes, i'm still aching everywhere.
i just wished i was stronger, more determined.
goodness, why am i such a loser.
rawr.
i want to get better at canoeing.
i want to paddle faster and so, i must go for every training from now on.

i can't wait for tomorrow.
training and dinner.
neither can i wait for next monday.
SHOPPING.CLOTHES SHOES BAGS.OMG.
i.am.such.a.bimbo.sometimes.haha.
i'm getting my pay this weekend too (:

i like surprise phonecalls. it seemed almost too coincidental, like a right timing sort of thing.
so i said, "let me tell you a secret" and in return, some words got back to me.
kind ones. the reassuring kind.
one sentence that made some things feel much better.
i think im just grateful to know that im never alone.
that some, the unexpected ones, actually do care.thankful enough.

i think i prefer honey stars to koko krunch.

monday was good.
went to cafe cartel with the canoe mates after training.
sam, damien, edmund and i share this crispy jumbo combo which is a meat lover's platter for five.
it consisted of dory fish fillets, deep fried chicken patties, prawns, potato wedges, carrots&zucchini, chicken wings and drumlets.
finished every single bit there was and sam and i even ordered a cookies&cream sundae.
yummylicious.
headed to town to get havaianas BUT THEY DIDN'T HAVE THE ONE I WANTED.
BUMMER.
oh well, i'll just have to wait.
walked around town and had venezia gelato.
i must stop indulging in food seriously.

oh and i realised that the canoe mates are quite holy.
we kept talking about the bible, noah's ark and how the world began kind of stuff over lunch.
and boy did i have a good laugh at edmund's theory of how one day in heaven is equivalent to many hundreds of years on earth.

shit.
it's 9 already.got to go bathe and then meet wenhao to go to changi.
goodness paddling from changi all the way to pulau ubin.
AHHH.
i'll be damn shagged tonight.

life's been quite good actually, and i'm happy.
yesterday was almost close to perfect.

had training at 10 which ended a little later than expected.
as usual.
went to bathe and had lunch with the canoe mates.
chrys, yoyo and serena had to leave right after because they had stuff on,
and i had to hang out with the guys at the canteen.
why? because i forgot to bring my keys and i couldn't go home since nobody was around.
i should really smack myself hard in the face.
decided to go to the mother's workplace to get the keys from her so that i could go back.
wenhao decided to be nice and followed me to meet the mother (:

went home, bathed and got ready to meet NINGLING.
that girl never fails to put me into a laughing fit.
enjoyed the train rides with her.
we headed to carl's junior at marina square to have dinner.
went to coffee club (again, but it's one of the nicest place to hang out) to have yummylicious chocolate fondue.
though there wasn't any mashmallows,the fruit portions were quite a lot, the chocolate was ohsodamngood.
ningling kept saying that i have a huge mouth because i kept stuffing the entire strawberry into my mouth.
oh please, your mouth is just as wide as mine when you stuffed that long piece of mango in.
haha.
teriyaki burger, beef chilli cheese fries, a huge cup of snapple and chocolate fondue made us feel like bursting but we're a contented lot (:
good friend plus good food.excellent combi.
i found a new foodie partner.teehee.
it's our first time hanging out till quite late, and you bet, there's plenty more to come.
ningling you'd better remember our shopping date on the 1st oct okaysss.

i'm such a glutton.
even brother also agrees with me.
haha i'll be going for the fullerton chocolate buffet with him on the first week of oct.
too bad chrys doesn't like chocolate.
brother, now i see where i get my eating habits from, YOU.
and yes i miss you too luh idiot.but you didn't have to call me yesterday to boast about the one day job thingy.grrr.

chrys says that i'm very excited about going cafe cartel this monday with her and wen hao.
oh well, see, i'm such a glutton.
and steph calls me her goon goon pig.
damn i've got to stop this sinful craving for food.
i'm such a sucker for good food.

haven't been hanging out much with my favourite people these days.
i'm soooo sorry.i'll promise to hang out with you people soon!
VIVIAN-meet up soon after your promos, study hard, don't skip school, meanwhile, hang in there!

training next tuesday and thursday would be around pulau ubin.
goodness, we have to paddle 22km.
i think i'm going to die.
i need to buy a water bag soon.

will be meeting CJ(hahaha) next week to have dinner at fisherman's wharf.
anyone knows where new bridge road is?

i want to go bakerzin for warm chocolate cake and desert tapas.
talk about curbing my cravings.

going to meet the class girls next week to celebrate siew tin and kimberly's birthday.
woohhooooo.

through the summer and the fall
we had each other that was all

saturday's canoe bbq was a blast.
everyone made it except peng ghee, serena and coach.
was held at flamingo valley, one of the condos in siglap.
bet edmund had forgotten to book the pit at east coast.
and that guy forgot to buy the wire mash, the brush for applying butter, ice, and he made us marinate the chicken thighs and stingrays on the spot.
there was a lot of food left over, you know why, that smart fella bought 2kg of stingrays, 3 big packets of chicken thighs, 6 packs of hotdogs and crab sticks.
and he bought heneiken, which i'd say, is the most disgusting shit i've ever drank.
but still we had loads of fun cam whoring, taking nonsensical videos and chit chatting about retarded stuff that made the guys high.
guys are seriously damn sick in the mind.raging hormones i guess.
thanks edmund for organising the bbq anyway(:

went to meet winston after the bbq at siglap centre.
went to have supper at coffee club.
the banana smoothie is so good i tell you.go try.
ahead home thereafter.

this is from sam's blog:
"poohpooh sam.you deserve a slap for being a whiny kid.
Im becoming like sarah fang.OMG, neighbour, your sister is influencing me."

hey i don't whine that much okay samantha see!

oh i cut my fizzy wizzy fringe yesterday.
and no i don't look like some china woman or whatever.
yes, i'm trying to convince myself that i do not look like one.

i spent 7 hours in front of the television last night watching the first 10 episodes of the first season of one tree hill.yes, i know i'm lagging behind terribly.
lukas is so hothothot.his abs are hothothot.
will continue with the next few episodes later tonight (:

YAY there's training tomorrow.
and i can't wait to paddle.

i'm in a semi-depressed mode now because i can't work for the one day job thingy because i'm under seventeen.oh boy, how pathetic is that.

oh well nevermind,
ahhh i need to go, i can't always be late.

i am a happy girl because.........
siling promised to buy krispy kremes from aussie for me.
but i'll have to wait till she comes back.

brother showed me this mtv when i stayed over the other day.
so sad luhhhhh.

i've got my results.
a gpa of 3.5, not that bad i'd say for a start.

stayovers with the canoeists are so much funfunfun.
playing with ps2 and nintendo wii, skate scootering out for supper at 1am, eating tons and tons of freddo chocolate, walking around the neighbourhood telling ghost stories, early morning chats all the way to 4am in the morning, fighting for the bed, pillows and bolster.
and only to wake up with bad stomach cramps the next day,
must be the concoction of bak chor mee and ice cream.

i skipped training today.
couldn't wake up at 7.30.too early.
i'm exhausted and my body's aching like mad.
me needs a massage badly.hohohoho.

can't wait for the canoe bbq later.
FOODDDD MAKES ME VERY HAPPY.
:D

i find that i say a lot of awful nonsense at times.

went for the mac delivery job interview with wen hao this morning.
decided that the job wasn't suitable for us because of the retarded working hours.
can you imagine working until 4am and still have to head to bedok reservoir a couple of hours later for training?
we went off half way during the training and headed to tampines mall for lunch.
haha i've learnt something interesting about wen hao.
he needs 4 sachets of curry sauce just for fries alone.talk about being greedy.
we talked and laughed a lot.i found a new lunching buddy (:
caught Ratatouille thereafter.
light hearted and hilarious.

i'm feeling rather bloated now.
must be the time of the month.
i feel sleepy and all i want to do is stay in bed.

will be meeting winston this wednesday for movie marathon.
woohoooooo.

i want to watch the movie "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" again.
it's quite an old movie though.
someone please lend me the dvd.
i could watch it over and over again.
one of the best movies i've ever watched.




i need your lovin' like the sunshine.

WOOOOSSSHHH.
just got back a while ago from dinner with chrys, jm and wen hao.
though it was a short but lovely two hours with them, time was well spent.

headed to the gym after service.
wen hao was already there since 3 plus.
i cannot go to the gym with that guy seriously, all he does is cracking me up with his jokes and stupid stories.
something hilarious happened while we were gyming.
the gym instructor walked up and asked me "where's your towel?"
i started to get worried because i forgotten to bring mine and also forgotten to buy one.
i saw a towel lying over the window ledge, pointed to the him saying "that's my towel lying over there."
he didn't quite believe me, he stared at me with hie eyes wide opened and said "WHAT??? that's your towel?"
LOL.and so he walked away.but i believe he was still looking at me to see if that's really mine.
that kuku wen hao said to me " eh you'd better take the towel in case he ask you again.you take the towel, walk pass him and use it to wipe your face and say loudly that its yours."
goodness, don't boys ever use their brains?

reality sucks a hell lot.
in my dreams i'm an art fart who can afford expensive clothes&bags and pretty shoes.
okay so random i know.

I loved you on this day. I love this memory.

my dad's nagging and its getting on my nerves.
pfffttttt.

SATURDAYYYYYYY.
thank you WINSTON for having dinner and ice cream with me.
(see i'm so nice, your name is in caps! hahaha)
i'm burnt, shagged and still hungry even though i had a lot for dinner.
dammit, i think i'll just grow fat and die.
that guy's jokes are seriously cannot make it.
buay tahan him.

have you seen anyone fall into a drain and got their legs scraped/scratched?
well that just happened to me a while ago.
and i started spewing F words at everything.
i don't know why i can be that blind and clumsy at times.

i'm looking forward to tomorrow.
get to meet my favourite people, there's church service and gym afterwards with steph and wen hao.
will be meeting jm for dinner and coffee afterwhich because as he says "we haven't talk much for the past week, let's go and chit chat"
love the long brother- sister chats we always have(:

But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another color turns to grey
and it's just too hard
to watch it all
slowly fade away

these couple of days has been really good.
i'm happy happy happy happy.
i've been snacking a lot, way too much.
i think i have some eating disorder.
i can't seem to stop eating.i'm always finding something to chew on.
but no worries, i can burn all these sinful calories during training.
i love training nowadays.i get tanner, i get to bond with the canoeists and i get to push myself to the limits.
now, it makes me want to push myself even harder so that i can be one of those to use the wing paddle.

am supposed to meet the girls to go mind's cafe to celebrate susu's birthday,
but i got up feeling rather sick and lethargic so i didn't join them.
the sun always does this to me.ughh.
i'm feeling rather bad about it now.
hope susu and the girls had fun!

it sucks staying at home but alas i kept myself occupied with dvds.
HAIRSPRAY!!
goodness, it's one of the best movies i've seen.
zac efron is such a major eye candy.
he is so friggin' hot.I LIKE!!
all those catchy tunes makes you want to get up on your feet and start dancing away.
go watch!



my favourite number from the show.

i've watched high school musical 2 too.
its sooooooo good.zac efron.


i'm still feeling a little sad when shinny told me that eileen and him will be quitting canoe.
you were the one who told me not to quit when i nearly wanted to.
you were the one who asked me to persevere when i felt like giving up.
and now you're telling me that you're quiting because you're too tanned, which i personally think its a dumbass reason.
no more dumb hilarious jokes, no more retarded friend to crap with, nobody to bully anymore (yep i always bully him), plus now, i have no one to go training and to go home with ):
nevermind we'll still keep in contact yep?
movie next thursday still on right dude?

training tomorrow and sushi buffet&gelare after that.
imma stuff myself silly with food (:
will be meeting yanjun next friday to shop.
and shopping with steph and jm next week after one of the trainings to get havaianas.
cafe cartel with chrys some time next week too.
i'm finally meeting up with cheryl and lemuel after the longest time.
like finally.

i love talking to vivian on the phone, despite her suaning me like shit.
we will always drift away from the topic we're talking about(mostly it's me) and start talking a whole lot of nonsense.
i like having proper phone conversations.
it's not the "hey what are you doing...okay see you soon, bye" type.
it makes me happy when i have a proper conversation with my friends.
frowning is close to impossible.

sem exam results will be out next week, till then, i want to have as much fun as i can.

You’re not alone, together we stand
I’ll be by your side, you know I’ll take your hand
When it gets cold, and it feels like the end
There’s no place to go, you know I won’t give in

its 1.50pm.skipped training today because i'm feeling the aches on my shoulder from gym yesterday.

besides there's work later on at 4.
am happy because i'll get to see ningling (:

will be meeting dudu tomorrow after training to get susu's belated birthday gift,
too bad yanjun isn't joining us because she has training.
imma can't wait for susu's birthday suprise this coming friday at mind's cafe.
she'd better be suprised.

dinner this wednesday with winston at bugis again, partly because i want to get a dress i saw the other day.
haha but really, everyone knows its hard to control yourself from buying something you really like.
shopping is such a mind blowing pocket-tearing experience.

i realised that sometimes i should just keep my little mouth shut and stop complaining and whining so much.
i should sit back and reflect that hey, my life isn't all that bad.
i'm so thankful for my friends.
i love jess, yanjun, vivian, ningling very very much <3
for a fact,
i have priceless friends (:

the canoe family is damn lame.
mother (peng ghee) forced me to marry the maid's (damien) son(zhen yu)
we even had a marriage certificate to prove it.


courtesy of chrys.

LOL.
jm messaged me later in the night, "sister, i've heard that you got married to zhen yu.how can you get married earlier than me? now i've got nobody to play with.nevermind, i'm happy that there's someone willing to marry you."
hahaha seriously, are they very lame or what.

i've been itching to buy the book "My Sister's keepers".
alright i shall get it either tomorrow or on wednesday.yayzors.


You don't love someone because they're perfect,'
'You love them in spite of the fact that they're not.'

my weekends are beautiful.
i'm all smiles right now :))))

the moment my paper ended on friday,
i met up with ningling and shi en to have lunch at long john,
followed by heading to bugis street to shop.
ningling and i bought the same cardigan and bought another top as well.really cheap.
so yep, i'm quite happy.
it was a hell lot of fun catching up with them, because we haven't had a proper conversation for ages.
we walked from bugis to haji lane, wanted to stop over at Pluck for some ice cream but it was full house so we ended walking over to peninsula plaza.
and me trying to be very smart, i said i knew the way.haha i ended up bringing them back to parco bugis junction.
so very smart sarah.
but still we had fun and did a lot of nonsensical stuff while walking.
it feels so damn good to hang out with them.
met winston for dinner&movie afterwards.
caught 1408.
dumb show really.it's about this guy who experience the same horror scene over and over again in his hotel room, hearing and seeing illusions of his dead daughter.
followed by dinner at marina square and went home after that because i still had training the next morning.

okay saturday.
training was the best.
the sun was out and we managed to paddle quite a bit.
coach was in a really good mood because he won about say $900 in a canoeing competition.
he called for pizza and ordered 8 boxes.
no doubt it was finished by us and the sajc canoeists.
we had pontoon fight since it was damien's birthday.
chrys, yoyo, me and the other three sajc girls fought against damien.
we were like this bunch of skinny lasses trying to push the big huge hulk into the reservoir.
went home to get ready and changed to meet some of the canoeists to got to damien's birthday party at bukit timah.
nobody told me that i would be the only girl, that was until i met them, then desmond told me that yoyo wasn't coming.
but it wasn't too awkward because at least i knew the canoeists.
only desmond, wei jie, zhen yu, peng ghee, jm and me went.
we still had loads of fun though.food, playing cards, cake, alcohol.
haha met winston(again, i know) at newton circus to have supper.
i don't know what's so good about that place honestly.
i won't say that the food is all too fantastic.
the carrot cake we ordered was dry like some cardboard.
headed home thereafter.

and on sunday, met the favourite people at church.
i like to see people happy, it makes me smile.
met wen hao and winston(haha yes third time in a row) to gym and swim after service.
then we headed to century square to have dinner with yanjun.
vivian joined us after that.
haha its so much fun hanging out on a sunday night with people like this.

today's training was rather slack.
i hate the water conditions.damn bloody choppy.
and sarah fang got the chance to use the wing paddle.
goodness, the wing paddle is so much lighter and it makes the boat cut throught the water much faster.
when i'm better, i'm going to start saving to buy my own wing paddle which costs around
$400-$500.
oh well.

i'm in a very good mood now.
i'm a happy bean so don't spoil it for me :))