I have a new school girl crush on Taecyeon all over again ^^

A pleasant surprise came delivered in person today. It was so pretty and seeing how Kenny was holding the bouquet of flowers in his hands made my heart melt....(so cliche but it's true!)

I can't say I'm a huge fan of flowers, because like all living things they die (and a little too quickly if you ask me), yet no matter how some girls say they don't like to receive them, we all know that deep inside them, there's a part which adores the attention and enjoys the beauty that flowers bring with it.

They say they don't like it because they try to convince themselves that it’s all right not to receive them. But take it from me, if you have the money to spend, spoil the one you love with flowers. It doesn't have to be a big bouquet, it could be a single stalk and even if their face only lights up for that few minutes upon receipt, I'd say, it’s worth every single penny.

To my dearest boyfriend,
to keep things short and sweet, I LOVE YOU <3 <3

You can date someone in the summertime when it’s too hot to have rules. This person might not make sense in February when you’re wearing thick coats and eating too much, but they’ll fit in nicely at a Fourth of July barbecue or a pool party. Your bodies will stick together in the heat and sometimes having sex will be the grossest activity you can think of, but you’ll do it anyway. You’ll understand what it means to be in a “summer mood”, how you can spend three months taking a break from your real life to make out, wear provocative clothing and drink too many margaritas. Your skin will be sun kissed, sand will stick between your toes and you’ll feel kinda sexy. When you start wearing cardigans and throwing yourself back into your work, your summer lover will fade away and the romance will live on as some kind of lost weekend at the beach. That’s okay though. Those who can love you in the summer have a difficult time doing so any other time.

You can date someone who loves you more than you love them. They’ll look at you with complete adoration and hang their jaw in a droopy way that strikes you as charming. You’ll be more goal-driven, more structured and they’ll teach you how to let go and feel worshipped. The inequity in love will be immediately apparent, but you’ll convince yourself that you’re just falling in love with them very, very slowly. After a certain amount of time, you’ll realize it won’t be possible and this swirl of guilt, anger and sadness will develop inside of you. You’ll look at their smitten face and want to spit in it. You’ll act ugly and hate yourself for not knowing how to love them back. There are certain people who are meant to have their hearts broken and there are certain people who are meant to break hearts. You’re not sure which is worse.You can date someone who will treat you like shit. They’ll be a Scorpio or a sociopath and have an intoxicating energy that’ll suck you in. After a few months, you’ll have completely lost yourself, making excuses for their awful behavior and telling your friends, “You just don’t know them like I do.” Even though you know it’s bullshit and hate yourself, those rare moments of tenderness will keep you involved and make it feel worth it. Hopefully, you’ll hit a wall with this person and tire of the emotional manipulation, abuse and misery. You’ll make a clean break and feel like you’ve woken up from a nightmare. Later, people will tell you that “everyone has that type of person in their life at some point. You know, the kind that abuses you and leaves you wanting the next kick.” Hearing this is supposed to make you feel better about everything. Or maybe it’s not. It’s hard to tell. What you do know is that you’ll never blame yourself for what happened. You’ll always blame them.

You can date someone who’s more attractive than you and marvel at their perfect body and porcelain skin. Their clavicle is just so exquisite, isn’t it? Love them most when they’re naked and they’ll love you most when you’re clothed. You might be smarter than them, have more warmth, empathy and intuition, but somehow you’ll end up feeling like the inadequate one. Everyone stares at you when you’re out together thinking, “What are they doing with that?” At least that’s what you’ll assume they’re thinking. Dating someone so beautiful has made you completely paranoid and insecure. Even though the beautiful person has reassured you of their love, it won’t be enough and you’ll stop dating them because you don’t want to feel like a gargoyle anymore. You’ll miss their clavicle most of all.

You can date someone who has never been in love before. They’ll remind you of teen love and it will be absolutely delightful. They’ll say weird intense things without knowing how weird and intense they are and make grand sweeping gestures of their love for you. They haven’t been ruined yet, haven’t discovered how cruel people can be and how much they can disappoint you. You’ll inevitably be that person for them though. Through some sort of love osmosis, they’ll inherit your bitterness and broken hearts when you start to show the slightest bit of disinterest. When they leave, you won’t ever be sure if dating them was worth it.

You can date someone who would be a good father or mother. Admire them for their nurturing capabilities and wonder if you’d be a good parent. Leave them when you stop wondering.

You can date someone who’s right for you. They’ll have a normal clavicle, make sense year-round, been in love before, take care of you when you’re sick, be occasionally passive-aggressive, want kids, sometimes disappoint you, love you, hate you, love you again. You won’t worry about who’s the cuter one or who loves the other one more. It just won’t cross your mind, which is when you know the love has longevity.

The people you date aren’t necessarily the people you end up loving and that’s okay. There will be different kinds of people who enter your life at certain times. You date someone who hates you when you hate yourself. Afterwards, you date someone who loves you too much to make it all better. The goal is to eventually have your shit sorted out so you can love someone just because they’re lovely and make you happy. That’s it. I love you; you love me. The end.

Who the hell complicated it?

[Lee Kuan Yew] also defended the policy of promoting marriage between highly-educated Singaporeans, a policy seen by critics as a form of social engineering, and dismissed the notion of love at first sight.

“People get educated, the bright ones rise, they marry equally well-educated spouses. The result is their children are likely to be smarter than the children of those who are gardeners,” he said.

“It’s a fact of life. You get a good mare, you don’t want a dud stallion to breed with your good mare. You get a poor foal.”

People who are “attracted by physical characteristics” may regret it, he said.

(This coming from a man who has a cancer stricken son and an albino grandson. FUCK YOUR ELITIST GENE POOL!)

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Some of the things that I do not miss:

1) coming back to the hotel with dirty black feet

2) the horrible traffic jams

3) cab/tuktuk drivers who are always out to scam us

4) getting kicked out of the cab because the driver was too lazy to make a u-turn

5) air pollution

Two things that I'll definitely miss:

1) insane amount of shopping

2) all the cheap good food (!!)

Me: Dad, how can I be sure if a guy really likes me or not?

Dad: If a guy really likes you, he would do whatever it takes to be yours. You see, there are two kinds of "being interested".

One is, when a guy likes you but has his heart open to other girls. This is the kind that isn't so serious about being serious.

The other kind of "being interested" is the kind that I want a guy to be interested in you. This is the kind whose eyes are set on you, and only you. No other girls.

The one that sends you those long text messages on how much he means to you, gives you goodmorning and goodnight calls telling you to have a good day and to have sweet dreams.

If a guy really wants to you to be his, he wouldn't be ashamed to introduce you his friends and even better, his family. I would want you to have a guy that when he looks into my daughter's eyes, he feels like he doesn't belong anywhere else but your heart.

--whygodmadegirls.tumblr

"How do you know if you really love someone? I mean, what is love? Many people have different relationships before they find the one they truly love, while some stay with their first loves.

How is it possible that you can love somebody, give your all, want to spend your life with her and one day, it ends and you move and find another eventually, wanting the same thing with the next her.

That is why I often find first loves amazing, those that stay with each other. But then again there are so many heartaches that life brings us that we don’t expect. And we have to move on isn’t it.

So I question, how is to truly feel like a I-cannot-imagine-life-without-you way of life, of when and what and who. Because maybe, that is the meaning of feeling love to me."

-- pehthestar.tumblr.com

I will be Bangkok bound with the girls I love!! ^^V

I am quite convinced I'm some sort of a genius who managed to get Bs and Cs for finals when I failed terribly in all my midterms. Or maybe it's the amazing moderation.

When asked what was her favourite moment in junior masterchef, Sofia said "standing here knowing that my beautiful sister is in the top two", that made me tear. Hurhur I'm such a loser.

Hi, the boyfriend says I need to be more active on my blog so hence the post.

In a couple of days time I'm going to be a uni-dropout. True story. I don't think I can continue studying physics? I will just die D: I would probably be da pao-ing all my mods to the next semester, which means I would be taking more than the usual 4 years to graduate. And why put myself through the misery again right?

I find that generally I'm a live-in-the-moment kinda girl, that nothing in the future tends to matter when I'm stuck in the present. Ummm and now my future seems so bleak? Good luck to me.

On a happier note, I'll be off to Bangkok in a week's time!! Which is also the start of the boyfriend's hell week hahaha. Speaking of which, he has been so accommodating to my nonsense and horrible temper. Going on movie dates, having an overload of ramen, webcam-ing even though we just saw each other a couple of hours ago, and every single minute spent was really the best. (as if he doesn't already know haha)

Okay gonna continue watching junior masterchef!

I can't believe I've been spending the last 4 days (including today) at home, cooped up in my room watching my serials. I am fast becoming a couch potato D:

"P: (2011) I'm turning 21 this year. Omg. What have I been doing with my life. It's so fast, I feel like I wasted the past 20 years of my life and I need to do (achieve) something.

S: Well you've been a kid for 10 years. So that makes it only 10.

P: Oh yeah, I like that."

So 2010 has finally gone (it was really fast) and 2011 is here! 2010 was definitely a good year, with new friendships formed, albeit some lost along the way, strong friendships which grew even stronger, gastronomic experiences and much much more fun.

And despite the little upsets here and there, I'm glad I had those who matter to make it all better (:

To sum 2010 up, I would say I was content. If I had to do it all over again, I wouldn't do it any differently. Maybe except for school.

For many of us, we start this new year with resolutions. For me, I don't do resolutions. Not because I can't keep them, but because why would you need resolutions to achieve something you really wanted?

So i start 2010 with one hope, to be happy. And I hope for everyone that they will too, in their own way, be happy :>

Christmas this year left me feeling warm&fuzzy inside out.

Brunch-ed at Hatched with JJ, the bf, MK and Siew tin in the day and steamboat for dinner with the bffflutd.

Some visuals from Bintan:



All ready to board the ferry!






You see, I have certain issues when it comes to photo taking. If I'm too near the camera or if it's not my angle then I will block my face out. Sorry, too vain.



Finally at the pool! We were there too early and the room wasn't ready so we had to lug our barangs to the pool since the sun was out and we're dying to get in.